First Day of School & Arkansas, sighhhhhhh

As my daughter enters high school and my son the first grade, I cried and cried.  Not for joy but "Omigosh, they're growing up and I'm getting old!"  This summer of moving, a big ol change and life changes have gotten me overwhelmed but frazzled.  I need to breathe!!!

I went on a small road trip to Arkansas for a good friend's wedding.  Hmmmm what can I say about Arkansas??

1. Too damn long of a drive through the state
2. Trees over trees made me puke, I see that here in the Iron Pine Curtain..lol
3. The weird and strange wildlife that was encountered during my drive.

Why does this place have to be a state? Sorry.. anyone from Arkansas reading, I'm not loving your state.  I give you beautiful scenery & hills but to be honest, you guys suck at driving.  Your animals are strange to see at night, very scary to see a chicken cross a road at 4am in Boles, AR.  A freakin chicken?? I'm use to chickens in the yard, maybe walk beside the road but they do not cross it because they do know something big that goes "VRROOM" will end its chicken life.  

Narrow ass streets!

As my ears popped, agitation and lack of sleep we made it to Eureka Springs.  Nice place, very hilly and look like one of those small town that have cool stuff.  I like the hippy vibe but will I trek there again? No. Because Arkansas is not my favorite state to travel through.  The wedding was nice, food (good), cake (yummy) and headed back to the room for rest and a long funky drive back to Texas.  I literally cried when I seen the state line.  That's a first for me.  Anywhere I go either driving or plane, not ready to come back home.  But going through Arkansas couldn't wait....  That's pretty bad for me I couldn't wait to get back home? What?? That's not me!! LOL...

I have more stories and playing catch up with  you guys..

Blessings & Love

The FINAL COUNTDOWN to MOVING!

It's coming to a good close. The moving process is happening as we speak! My cute couch is shipped, got

my table, stuff in boxes and ready to roll out.  I was a bit depressed for a while because my son is already gone with his dad. The thought hit me and couldn't do nothing but cry and laid shiftless in bed. I still did some awesome things with him and notice how clingy he became when the thought of not being around mom like everyday.  At first, I was like "why are you hanging on to me like a toddler?" Thought about it, he's going to miss me like crazy and wants to enjoy every moment with mom and sister. He too, was going through stuff also like me. I became moody and he turned clingy.   We, as adults, sometimes do forget about our little ones' feelings. We was once children also.  But children are brave, smarter they may not express their emotions in complete thoughts but their actions show.  I didn't want to pack the rest of his clothing up because I wanna hold on, he grew inside me, birth him, still raising and loving him.  Separation is hard for anyone but he's brave. Haven't called him yet but I will this week. And the fact his father, ex-husband aka Lucifer threw a fit about me being the last resort to pick my kid so he can go to work. Being summon for jury duty that means I wasn't available, leaving stupid immature messages means eye rolls and laughter on my part.

First, when you are working and have children always have a baby-sitter, caring relative or a trusted friend to MAKE SURE that your child is cared for when going to work. It's common sense. I worked from the evenings to night with two children. I have my dad to watch my children. Dad is the real human Oscar the Grouch but he made sure that nothing doesn't happen to them and do trim his schedule to get them off the bus. The kids stayed with me at times at work and helped me clean the school, bought them food and took them home so they can get their baths and rest. Its' called parenting! Very lucky to work at a school to have this privilege.

Second, You asked for him. When this conversation took place months ago, you had plenty enough time to get arrangements of your life to incorporate his. You can not worm your way out!  Remember, you created him just the same as I did. No if's and's or but's.

Finally, its called parenting. There's no part-time, 3/4's, or sometimes. Parenting is full time!! Just because we are divorce, you're still his father. Our time is over...waaaayyyy over for almost 3 years now. Get over it! Focus on your children. Some adults are still wanna play like kids and think everyone is going to do it for them. Parenting is not easy but it can be enjoy.

Okay, enough venting, missing my son like crazy.

Should have brought a book, instead of sulking.

Yesterday I got stood up, suppose to meet up (not a date) for coffee at the local town coffee house. We agreed on this arrangement and he never showed up. Curling up with a good book from Anais Nin and orchestra music, I left a nice message on his phone and told him good luck and its not nice to waste a person time.  Went to the fabulous Italian restaurant had a great meal. He called back with some story, I don't know if true or not but a simple text or call earlier that day could have saved you. Not cool to keep a lady waiting and wasting her precious time.  My time is precious at every second. He wanted a reschedule, nope as I let him know for the second time, you had your chance.  When a guy isn't that into you, keep moving on! There's millions of guys in the world and one isn't gonna make me second guess myself into feeling something is wrong with me. Something is wrong with you for not up holding a commitment made. Men can be jerks but this jerky jerk isn't gonna slow me down at the least.



He said " I keep dating crazy white women." Umm maybe you need to change your dating habits and

Remind me not to get Coke next time.

why this have to do with me? I don't care, not my fault you're not of sound good judgement and character.  I know the men around here are spread very thin with quality and seems these guys like to tell you about shitty dating habits when your keeping it light and breezy. When did conversations of talking about your crazy dating life become the norm?  I wanna know about you, not some crazy ass chick who did you wrong. Ugh..I make it my point not to talk about my ex-husband when meeting a guy. A guy who goes on in this manner, usually these dudes get  NNEEXXTTT'D!!

Quality is better than quantity.

Ladies do not be swayed by the thirst nor put yourselves in the thirsty position. Take up hobbies, new interests, meet ups in your town with groups, getting to know yourself too. Trust your gut, don't give them a second, third or fourth chance. Their impression isn't great at the beginning, keep moving.  In the words of Sweet Brown "Ain't nobody got time for that!"  Newly divorced, single whatever your worth is important!
I'm still learning as we speak, turn on the bullshit blockers to level RED but also keep enjoying your life.  

Keep it light, breezy and float like a butterfly.
And you may have to change your choice of beverages too....:)

Reality tv have went too far with ignit folks who want FAME!

Lawd jesus this needs to be set on fire and sent back to the depths of  Mordor!

This crack of shit called "The Real Babymommas of Richmond" shows how real baby mommas of Richmond throw down ignit style. 

Coon and minstrel shows of this type needs to be STOP, dropped kick'd and a Mortal Kombat finishing fatality move is the answer.  I do not watch tv due to trash shows only Hulu and Netflix programming but people are reaching into the wild yonder on Youtube to promote shit.

These women do not realize how many people are watching them, laughing and making fun of their lives on camera. Stooping so low to call themselves "baby mommas."  But when you have low self esteem, two or more children, never been married, cackling about other people, trying to live 'ghetto' fabulous then I guess you are what you are.  Then your children are showcased in this buffoonery.  Ma'am, you have no respect for your children.  

One thing these smart women do not realize is the image they set for black women in America.  Truly they must feel that are "setting the best" representation of black woman, telling their baby momma woes, going out to the club, what kind of hair to get at the Korean hair store or how this "kneegrow" is five months behind in child support payments but he can lay the pipe down.

The coonery of these people continue to seek and destroy whatever to claim fame.  

“All my skinfolk ain’t kinfolk.” - Zora Neale-Hurston

Thank You Zora!

Call me an "elitest" I do not care. I live my life normal: caring for my children, worrying about how they do well in school, bills, what's for dinner?, choosing car insurance so I can save 15%, co-parenting with Lucifer the ex-husband, budging a check book and so on... Normal and boring. Much simple, no drama and peace.

Gladly, I do not live in Richmond,VA.  And to those wonderful residence of Richmond who lead boring normal lives, my condolences are with you.

Wallpapering is serious business!

Omigosh, this is cray!

Been busy for the past couple of weeks, cleaning and redecorating my new home. Wallpapering is not for the faint of heart. It's not fun, tedious, irritating and straight up not for me.  As you can see, this is HALF of the wall to do. Good thing its not big space to fill but dangit! Quite irritated with the WHOLE process. From the second sheet, you can see I gave up but I kept going. Even the motifs are almost perfect but not lining up well. This where a good- looking, nice muscles, nice ass (lol) slightly shirtless home improvement guy should have dropped in and helped me. Lo and behold my kids are with me. They seen every expression, sweat and hear every unnameable word that came out of my mouth that day! My daughter helped and seem she took a digress learning experience of wallpapering. Glad she liked the painting and putting contact paper on the counters.

She did a great job with the painting. We chose a grey-tone purple that wouldn't look too feminine but the neutrality of the color ties the counter, floor and cupboards.  Now super excited as we "speak" my coffee table came in.  I'm designing on a budget and using my imagination to get the best of our my money and making my home a home.  Speaking on that, good gracious! Home Depot and the hotties!!!  The last time trekking to Home Depot is when I was married. Now single, cruising to the hardware store for the house in on my list.  I may have came overdressed but didn't care, I was looking for supplies for the home.  Why does my daughter give me a weird look and side eye when muttering "dayum, he's hot."  She can't stand it. Sorry honey but mom is still young, healthy and attractive. Am I suppose to frown up and say yuck? At least it wasn't out loud and desperate. LOL. I told her I can't help it, in my nature. The fact wearing an off-shoulder Victoria's Secret summer dress does the trick when out of the blue, HD employees ask you if needing an assistance. One scared my daughter when saying hello in a booming, chirpy voice. And this is a teenager who doesn't pay attention, listening to her IPod doesn't matter if a fire breaks out on top of her head; failing to put it out, this guy broke her trance. He even gave my son a high five when he put his hand out. My kids, my kids!

I didn't  flirt but kept smiling, looking nice and shopped for what I needed. Seeing my daughter's eyes narrow is the sign of a guy checking me out.  Poor girl, doesn't she know they can look but not touch? She thinks guys aren't suppose to look at mom no matter what. Baby girl, got a long life ahead of her!!!

By next week we'll move in after the tests my daughter have to take after summer school. Super psyched about the sci-fi/horror party this week.  Meet-up groups are popping and springing about and what a perfect way to meet new people.  Fill this summer up with group meet ups of your favorite hobbies/interests.  Been friggin hot in Texas this month and rain didn't help shit but bring out more bugs and snakes. The bugs I don't care as long its outside but snakes....now that's a different story!

Next few weeks, Kountrysoulgirl will be out on a short hiatus. See you back in mid-July.

Have a wonderful, fun and safe summer! :)
Remember ladies, Hardware stores!!! Don't wanna hear stalker stories while breathing heavily in the plumbing section.

Nay no my brotha, dingaling pictures must go! Cappa tow!

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Mr. Creepy: Here are a few more pics to liven up your Friday.

Me: Wow and to think that you seem very nice, good head on your shoulders and interesting to meet pretty soon but NOPE!

You had me with the first email but that those are too much Dave  creepy.

If you would have played your cards right and get to know each other with conversation, fun and everything, now this would happen in real time down the road.  

I thought adult men with better common sense existed around here only to see the "famous penis pic" in my email.

You are good looking but damn you messed that up though I give you that but not your girl here, sorry.

Have a great life Dave creepy.


My actual personal/dating ad:

Can't believe I'm doing this

Wonder if I caught your attention with the title. Divorced, black female, 30's, two children, attractive and petite. 
I like reading, an avid cinephile, into sci-fi, fantasy and horror. Jam out to Depeche Mode, Rammstein, DJ Fei Fei and a bunch of artists that so hard to think of right now. Enjoy traveling, wine tasting, art galleries and museums. I embrace and love my inner dorkiness and awkwardness too. Do have tattoos about nine of them, cool afro and a nice smile. 

Looking for a nice guy with common sense, a pique to try new things, interesting hobbies and pretty much like minded like me but with some different taste. I do have a preference: white, asian, middle eastern and hispanic. Sorry, not explaining what I like but those are my preferences. Age: 32-46 at least. Must work out or keep yourself in healthy shape with any outdoor activities. Non-smoker preferred but if you're trying to quit that's wonderful. I have no quarrels with your religious and political preference, just as long you do not try to coax me to switch or demonize my opinions. I respect your views and the same with mine and do enjoy conversations ranging from random silliness to serious intense and thought provoking. Not that intense...:) Manners are important as well. 

A date should be fun to get to know each other not, drudgery. 
Enter" Real Face to Face meet up" in the title box
Under NO circumstances: I do not respond to catfish, friends with benefits, NSA, married men and separated men. Thirstiness is not accepted either so keep on moving forward.
I don't do the chasing, men do chasing not women. 
Until then, see ya soon :)
Ciao.

Does that sound like an invite for a random dick picture??? LOL

Have a great week!

     

2 am blues & procrastinating is a MOFO

I wonder why do I stay up late and knowing that my job, Monday-Friday is getting the kids up for school. Been slacking because its almost for them to get out for the summer.  Ready like Freddy for this year to be over with.

Fighting the fight with the urge to smoke.  There is a lot to deal with and the mind is tricky.  You do not realize your brain is an extraordinary muscle of awe and mystery.

Except my brain become a drug pusher every night.  I swear its someone else's invading my "Mind Palace" stole that from Sherlock.

Online dating became interesting and the guys in my area are lacking A LOT. That means; time to move somewhere better and bigger. Not going to wait on change around here with these country ass bumkins who are too clueless to know how to approach a woman and not a "black woman."  I swear people are fuckin' retarded. Some are half to full functioning retards.

Trust me, since I do not smoke the bullshit does stop within five seconds.  I actually like me better because not hiding my feelings behind a cancer stick.  My mind works faster and do not pull any punches. I have to work on tact and that's cool. Being a Pisces, one thing about us is we're blunt and do not hold a grudge.  If anyone do not like what I say to them and being honest then oh well, that's you!  Either take it or leave it!

My ass have been on a roll this past month...

Take Care peoples!

Who in the hell puts plates of food to attract a woman??? Yippy Star Trek!!!

Lawd Jesus!  That's exactly how I felt when a guy contacted me when I put out an ad for dating. Who in the hell puts plates of food to attract a woman??

Okay??

What is the deal with crazy men and pancakes?

First of all, I like food but I do not LOVE food. This dude is offering food to entice me to contact him back. Does he think I have low self esteem, fighting emotions demons with food? Second, does this works for him?  Seems he pulled this trick on an "hungry" person. Third for someone who can "throw down" in the kitchen (using that extremely loose) how come he didn't use better china to present his cooking skills?  Presentation is the key here and frankly he didn't watch too many Top Chef shows to understand this. 

And this right here: Face 2 face meet up.... u said ni catfish....lol...days funny.....hi .....alotta my friends call me Mississippi.....simple southern bro.,outdoors is my thang,cooking is as well.I can be a mental stimulater as well on knowledge....lets get 2 knoe 1 another...

Yo!!!!!! Like u knee 2 us spel chek an brush up on yo mental stimulater skills cuz yoz sux.

What the fuck is a mental stimulater? Is he trying to say " I can have an actual conversation without sound like a moron?" 

IF I wrote back to Mississippi:

Simple southern bro since your friends call you Mississippi, over 40 years ago they integrated schools overturning the Plessy vs. Ferguson case of 1890.  That means us that live in the south do have better education. Since you fucked that up, me don't help a brotha out.  Now sending me something like this predetermines your email is deleted and pictures are used for examples to others that bad grammar and food pictures do not mix. Mississippi, you didn't read thoroughly when stated my preference but you try to come steppin like you're the shit and "mayne she will not turn me down with these bad looking chipped plates and who can not resist pancakes and chicken wings in tuppawear bowl!"  My brotha, that shit give me indigestion and I can feel my GERD rising into my esophagus. Guessing from this, you had many success of enticing women with empty stomach to savor the flavor of a mundane sloppy meal. Interesting (the Spock eyebrow raise.)  I guess they didn't have the culinary skills and money also.  But you know what? You are a great catch, to that homeless woman who just fancy a hot meal today. That crackhead who came down from her high and mighty hungry for a good home-cooked meal. Or that low self esteem girl who can't go and get help professionally but drown her sorrow in a plate of food just like yours, cries about why she's fat and really not but still stuffs her face because food is her greedy comfort armor. Plus these women probably do not care about your spelling. Not a grammar Nazi but you do not show a sign of completing a high school diploma or a GED.  

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Okay that's a bit too much for him to read but that my version of putting it eloquently.  Or......

Dude, are you stupid? yeah you are. please learn how to fucking spell & who cares about you shitty ass food. Knee grow please go kill yourself, start by choking on that dry ass pork chop.

I like both of them but the second one has pizzazz. Lil on the violent side but does make a brilliant statement of letting him know that people are very picky about who they respond to in dating ads. That's why I deleted his. But came back to write about this to let you know how strange people will go just see if you're that needy/thirsty/desperate to respond back. And I stated that Thirstiness will not be tolerated. Him being thirsty and hongry at the same time. His mama probably cooked that for him..LOL...  Couldn't do nothing but fall out laughing at this lunacy. We got some chunks here in East Texas but this is seriously ridiculous. He must think I'm a big girl. Only a healthy size 8 and being short, have to take care of myself & watch my weight.  

On that, I quit smoking!! YAAAAA!! but still have bronchitis..BOOOOOOOO!!!!!  Awww man, the internal war inside your head for a pack of smokes do not bullshit!  Friggin crucial and becomes life or death!  Convinced myself not to go and buy smoke on Mother's Day. Been smoke free from 3 weeks going on 4.  Takes 21 days to form another habit so, Friday a yoga class is in place.  So happy that I do not smell like a cigarette and my breath doesn't bother the kids in the morning.  Even my skin is taking a change for the better, still in its rough stage of slotting off dead skin cells called cell renewal.  Going back to the dr. later this month, she could put me on stronger steroids to clear out my bronchi tubes.  I was born with bronchitis because my mother smoked while pregnant with me ( go figure, the seventies man) so ugghhhhh, dealing with it now.  Every other night no sleep until 7 a.m. then get the kids up for school.  This week is tiring and did I tell you that the weather is HUMID!  Thought a midget was standing on my chest! Hot damn, you talking about your girl struggling to walk and breath at the same time. 

Welp, time for me to hit the sack. You guys have a wonderful weekend!

Oh, made a 2.0 for the spring semester, from my grandfather's death, crazy work weeks and being out last month with bronchitis; I passed. Barely.



And....Star Trek came out today

mmmmmmmm Karl Urban MEOWWW...

Stole my heart in LOTR!

plenty of eye candy for mom and action for my son tomorrow morning. Just like Iron Man 3.. Robert Downey Jr.  is still handdddsssoooommmmmmeeeeee.....


Luv summer blockbuster movies...Bye!!! :)