Hitting up on this small venue tomorrow night.

Things been kinda rough lately but getting a bit better.

Not doing very well in English so I'm hitting it hard as ever to pull my grade up and very extremely late on my project.

I hate stress and depression. Been coping with depression since a teenager.

Last month, hit me like a ton of bricks, not good. So I took the steps to seek help and very proud of myself.
One thing about seeking professional mental health either a therapist or counselors, that it works.  I do not DISS mental health professionals, I PROMOTE.  Why have things bottled up inside? You're only destroying yourself in the process.  Yes, I do believe in a higher power but didn't the higher power put those wonderful professionals on Earth to help you out?

Who wants to continue "crazy" for the rest of their lives? Push people away who love them because they are too scared to get next you much less have a general conversation without an awkward confrontation or getting knocked in the head for nothing? Staying sad, anger and bitter for the rest of your life raining misery?

Maybe you love it but I don't.  Give me singing birds, unicorns, candy canes and flowers any day!!

Anyhoo I'm going to a live band and bar downtown tomorrow night.  This should be fun, hopefully good music, company and lots of dancing. I love to dance!!



Well I have to run....
Take care as I do too!

Peace & Blessings.

Some folks can not handle rejection from the KountrySoulGirl.

It's official, moving out of the state of Texas after graduation.  I love my Texas roots and all but it seems nothing hasn't changed a bit.. Nothing at all.

Don't worry nothing doesn't get me down that much but I'm damn sure going somewhere where I'm loved and not tolerated.


Peace and Blessings! :)

Again, this town blows doggy poo!!

I forgot to upload my V-log but then again I tend to forget.......

Let's start off:

My starter ( the mechanism that turns the car on) died.

I went into a frustrated mode past week

And this town still blows....


I am in a some kind of limbo living here for the past three months.  There's nothing ABSOLUTELY not a damn thing, nada, zilch nothing.

The look of the week.

Do you know why?

1. This is a college town, now if you think there's plenty to do there isn't.  Yeah I can find something but the interest that I'm in is lacking.
2. Stuck in the middle of this age thing: Plenty of cute 20 somethings and over 40 something that reminds me of the boggy creek creature.  Don't get me wrong, guys in their 40's are smooookkkiiiinnn' hot, seen a couple at work. Dear Jesus, Maria and Jose that one man....like to had lost it, ignored him but checking him out, then asked me a question about paint scrapers.  I held every molecule in my body not to say "Daayyyuummm where ya been all this time?" Being around East Texas, teeth is the important thing to have when looking good. Don't get me started on plenty of eye sores witnessing for the past years.
3. Where's the f****social life?  Driving down North St. seeing crackheads, misfits, college students all walking down the street is being social, then your dead wrong!!  I hit a couple of hang outs, coffee shops and public affairs... Lost cause.. I have to drive 30 minutes to another town, slightly bigger just to have fun?? Or go the extra mile driving an hour and twenty minutes just to have fun.
4. There's not any like minded people out there where I can be myself and socialize.  OMIGOD! I believe they moved away in 2009.
5. Finally, dating around here is going to Hell with ice water and expect it to stay cold.  Don't let me start (ooopppss) I bypass freaks.. Friggin BTK creepy serial killer stalking me in Hastings one night asking me "Do I go to church and would I like to come with him one day?' What are you, fuckin Mormon? Is this how you ask out your victims? Using religion as a pick up line?  No wonder, you walk slightly limpy, wear rapist glasses, breathe heavily you're a damn serial sociopathic rapist killer.  Shit, my daughter and I seen the gleam from those birth control magnets three aisle away. Dammit to shithouse fire, keep running into scary ass in different places in town.. Dude, stop following me!!

EXACTLY!
Take notes ladies, Jon is TRUTH and AVOID the 'mystery' of rapist glasses.

One a lighter note, Dad saved the day replacing the starter, working on my presentation of Yugoslavia (anyone out there who is from the former Yugoslavia please help me out) and I did save 50.00 on my car insurance and wasn't Geico.


And its time for a uproot when my daughter and I graduate.....

Well time to jet...Until next time stay safe, smart, don't bring home strays and many blessings!

Depeche Mode rocked and Crystal Castles in my new jam!!!

The concert was wonderful. I couldn't be more pleased with the opening act and DM.  My weekend was long, exciting and tiresome.

Firsthand, driving to get to Dallas jeez! Somehow a out of nowhere hurricane (not really heavy rain with strong winds) hit the little town I was passing through to head on the interstate. Thirty plus minutes going twenty miles an hour.  After that mess, I hit 75 mph on to D-town.  We had to do some shopping first so hit good ol Town East Mall in Mesquite.  Very fond of this mall as a teen, my dad use to drive two hours for school shopping, seeing all of fights from those "city" kids over really dumb stuff.  Who takes a beef to the mall? You know security is everywhere and duh!!! The police will take you to jail.  I told my daughter about seeing two girls fighting on this very escalator heading to the second level.  Her eyes popped out and couldn't believe over 20 years ago, I still can recall the fight vividly as it still taking place of right now.

Ugh...shopping for teenagers now I see how my mother felt. She gave us each a crispy Ben Frank and let us run amok. Same with my dad but only with a credit card.



Afterwards, off to the Gexa Pavilion. Parking wasn't bad but the backflow of turning on the street to get there, dayum.  Had a few minutes to get changed.  Finally got to wear the red American Apparel dress scored for sixteen bucks and yes its extra short, open in the back. The opening act is Crystal Castles.

2 am tired there, still smiling.

To my knowledge, I had no clue until today. Like to have fell out of my chair! The song "Through the Hosiery" is a track on GTA 4. For those who do not play video games the acronym for Grand Theft Auto. I've liked that group and wanted to hear more of their music. But you know this is America, anything that's "in" or a one hit wonder is great but exploring & appreciating the artists' talent isn't important.  Music here sucks big time, glad I found that out as a teenager.  My daughter is on that wave-length also.  She's a big R&B fan and wish rap wasn't as dirty and disgusting now. I told her years ago it wasn't like that, hip-hop was fun and had a powerful message behind it. You're better off listening to classics.

Alice's hair is longer and blonde still, they're a good band.














After CC left the stage, I high tailed chugging a pint of Shiner and consuming a slice of greasy pizza. The boys came onto stage.  I boogied my arse off!

Every video that I've bought when DM goes on tour, the visuals are amazing!  One song "I Feel You" the visual is a girl dancing krunk like going off the chain with her own style.  Couldn't believe my eyes because those are some of the moves I use to do in the mirror.  Totally digged the concept because the "thought" of moving modern hip-hoppish, bit of 80's break dance moves wasn't achievable in a Depeche Mode song. Well, they nailed it and a fine job of it too.

They played "Enjoy the Silence" three song before the end.  Ha, those rascals!! Ol switch-a-roo.  Yep you can hear me singing, sounding terrible don't care either..


I have a couple of the Delta Tour video clips on my youtube. And I'm tired. I have three papers to do, one tomorrow and the others Wednesday.

Go catch the DM Delta Machine tour, nice show, lots of changes and a badass opening act to get you pumpin!

Blessings.

Have a great weekend and random thoughts from the KountrySoulGirl.

A college town that lacks bands... Ooooo Depeche Mode in Dallas!!!

Greetings as I type my homework at the library. Last weekend was a trip to Eureka Springs, AR to a wedding.  Labor day was Monday. Enjoyed every bit of it and worked that night.

Nope, not even close!

As you know I, KountrySoulGirl moved to another town that is an hour away from the homestead.  The transition have been a bit rough for the past three months.  A dead college town is just a regular ol' town, which been exciting to see all the "locals" here.

Omg, they're too funny.
It's like watching cartoons in live action but funnier.  Since I live five minutes outside of town in the country and its pretty normal and quiet but when I wanna shake my day up a bit, go into town.  Hilarious...

And none of these corny ass kids have not developed a band; garage POS band, no rock, alternative,  heavy metal, country, dubstep nothing.. Its like they're retardedly musically challenged. Seen over 10 guitars in a pawn shop.. Really???? And pretty cheap too!!!

I digress...

My first two weeks in this town, I was hit on by a Mexican dude in the grocery store, who stalked me about every aisle I walked. Then on to the laundrymat where this African guy was a bit toooo close for comfort sitting next to me. WOOOOO that breaf (yep I said breaf) almost killed me. So I moved very swiftly getting my clothing out the dryer and running to my car.  New job is fine!! Work in the paint dept. in a hardware store.  Lots different than working at the school & cleaning after kids.  I'm still customer service but now I get paint splattered everywhere.  Dayum so many cute guys work there and customers too!!!

LADIES, Please visit your local hardware stores!!!

pause..drool..and more drooling

I am telling you because I work there.  Too much eye candy!!!  Take a great stroll down the tool, paint and electrical.  Find a good project for the weekend.  Need a new a color on the bedroom walls? Change in cabinet holders? Hell, cheap light bulbs??  Visit your local hardware store!! :)


Depeche Mode....Eeeeekkkkkkkkkk

Counting down the days for Dave, Martin and Andy to hit Dallas this month.
Mother and daughter first concert, what better band to choose? Depeche Mode.  She actually shot down the ACL (Austin City Limits) Music Festival in October only to see Depeche Mode and to leave school early also..:)

Wow, my baby is growing up!
She going to see mom break it down in the magical elf dance..
We will have footage & pictures of the concert.

Have a great weekend

Blessings!!

First Day of School & Arkansas, sighhhhhhh

As my daughter enters high school and my son the first grade, I cried and cried.  Not for joy but "Omigosh, they're growing up and I'm getting old!"  This summer of moving, a big ol change and life changes have gotten me overwhelmed but frazzled.  I need to breathe!!!

I went on a small road trip to Arkansas for a good friend's wedding.  Hmmmm what can I say about Arkansas??

1. Too damn long of a drive through the state
2. Trees over trees made me puke, I see that here in the Iron Pine Curtain..lol
3. The weird and strange wildlife that was encountered during my drive.

Why does this place have to be a state? Sorry.. anyone from Arkansas reading, I'm not loving your state.  I give you beautiful scenery & hills but to be honest, you guys suck at driving.  Your animals are strange to see at night, very scary to see a chicken cross a road at 4am in Boles, AR.  A freakin chicken?? I'm use to chickens in the yard, maybe walk beside the road but they do not cross it because they do know something big that goes "VRROOM" will end its chicken life.  

Narrow ass streets!

As my ears popped, agitation and lack of sleep we made it to Eureka Springs.  Nice place, very hilly and look like one of those small town that have cool stuff.  I like the hippy vibe but will I trek there again? No. Because Arkansas is not my favorite state to travel through.  The wedding was nice, food (good), cake (yummy) and headed back to the room for rest and a long funky drive back to Texas.  I literally cried when I seen the state line.  That's a first for me.  Anywhere I go either driving or plane, not ready to come back home.  But going through Arkansas couldn't wait....  That's pretty bad for me I couldn't wait to get back home? What?? That's not me!! LOL...

I have more stories and playing catch up with  you guys..

Blessings & Love