2 am blues & procrastinating is a MOFO

I wonder why do I stay up late and knowing that my job, Monday-Friday is getting the kids up for school. Been slacking because its almost for them to get out for the summer.  Ready like Freddy for this year to be over with.

Fighting the fight with the urge to smoke.  There is a lot to deal with and the mind is tricky.  You do not realize your brain is an extraordinary muscle of awe and mystery.

Except my brain become a drug pusher every night.  I swear its someone else's invading my "Mind Palace" stole that from Sherlock.

Online dating became interesting and the guys in my area are lacking A LOT. That means; time to move somewhere better and bigger. Not going to wait on change around here with these country ass bumkins who are too clueless to know how to approach a woman and not a "black woman."  I swear people are fuckin' retarded. Some are half to full functioning retards.

Trust me, since I do not smoke the bullshit does stop within five seconds.  I actually like me better because not hiding my feelings behind a cancer stick.  My mind works faster and do not pull any punches. I have to work on tact and that's cool. Being a Pisces, one thing about us is we're blunt and do not hold a grudge.  If anyone do not like what I say to them and being honest then oh well, that's you!  Either take it or leave it!

My ass have been on a roll this past month...

Take Care peoples!

Who in the hell puts plates of food to attract a woman??? Yippy Star Trek!!!

Lawd Jesus!  That's exactly how I felt when a guy contacted me when I put out an ad for dating. Who in the hell puts plates of food to attract a woman??

Okay??

What is the deal with crazy men and pancakes?

First of all, I like food but I do not LOVE food. This dude is offering food to entice me to contact him back. Does he think I have low self esteem, fighting emotions demons with food? Second, does this works for him?  Seems he pulled this trick on an "hungry" person. Third for someone who can "throw down" in the kitchen (using that extremely loose) how come he didn't use better china to present his cooking skills?  Presentation is the key here and frankly he didn't watch too many Top Chef shows to understand this. 

And this right here: Face 2 face meet up.... u said ni catfish....lol...days funny.....hi .....alotta my friends call me Mississippi.....simple southern bro.,outdoors is my thang,cooking is as well.I can be a mental stimulater as well on knowledge....lets get 2 knoe 1 another...

Yo!!!!!! Like u knee 2 us spel chek an brush up on yo mental stimulater skills cuz yoz sux.

What the fuck is a mental stimulater? Is he trying to say " I can have an actual conversation without sound like a moron?" 

IF I wrote back to Mississippi:

Simple southern bro since your friends call you Mississippi, over 40 years ago they integrated schools overturning the Plessy vs. Ferguson case of 1890.  That means us that live in the south do have better education. Since you fucked that up, me don't help a brotha out.  Now sending me something like this predetermines your email is deleted and pictures are used for examples to others that bad grammar and food pictures do not mix. Mississippi, you didn't read thoroughly when stated my preference but you try to come steppin like you're the shit and "mayne she will not turn me down with these bad looking chipped plates and who can not resist pancakes and chicken wings in tuppawear bowl!"  My brotha, that shit give me indigestion and I can feel my GERD rising into my esophagus. Guessing from this, you had many success of enticing women with empty stomach to savor the flavor of a mundane sloppy meal. Interesting (the Spock eyebrow raise.)  I guess they didn't have the culinary skills and money also.  But you know what? You are a great catch, to that homeless woman who just fancy a hot meal today. That crackhead who came down from her high and mighty hungry for a good home-cooked meal. Or that low self esteem girl who can't go and get help professionally but drown her sorrow in a plate of food just like yours, cries about why she's fat and really not but still stuffs her face because food is her greedy comfort armor. Plus these women probably do not care about your spelling. Not a grammar Nazi but you do not show a sign of completing a high school diploma or a GED.  

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Okay that's a bit too much for him to read but that my version of putting it eloquently.  Or......

Dude, are you stupid? yeah you are. please learn how to fucking spell & who cares about you shitty ass food. Knee grow please go kill yourself, start by choking on that dry ass pork chop.

I like both of them but the second one has pizzazz. Lil on the violent side but does make a brilliant statement of letting him know that people are very picky about who they respond to in dating ads. That's why I deleted his. But came back to write about this to let you know how strange people will go just see if you're that needy/thirsty/desperate to respond back. And I stated that Thirstiness will not be tolerated. Him being thirsty and hongry at the same time. His mama probably cooked that for him..LOL...  Couldn't do nothing but fall out laughing at this lunacy. We got some chunks here in East Texas but this is seriously ridiculous. He must think I'm a big girl. Only a healthy size 8 and being short, have to take care of myself & watch my weight.  

On that, I quit smoking!! YAAAAA!! but still have bronchitis..BOOOOOOOO!!!!!  Awww man, the internal war inside your head for a pack of smokes do not bullshit!  Friggin crucial and becomes life or death!  Convinced myself not to go and buy smoke on Mother's Day. Been smoke free from 3 weeks going on 4.  Takes 21 days to form another habit so, Friday a yoga class is in place.  So happy that I do not smell like a cigarette and my breath doesn't bother the kids in the morning.  Even my skin is taking a change for the better, still in its rough stage of slotting off dead skin cells called cell renewal.  Going back to the dr. later this month, she could put me on stronger steroids to clear out my bronchi tubes.  I was born with bronchitis because my mother smoked while pregnant with me ( go figure, the seventies man) so ugghhhhh, dealing with it now.  Every other night no sleep until 7 a.m. then get the kids up for school.  This week is tiring and did I tell you that the weather is HUMID!  Thought a midget was standing on my chest! Hot damn, you talking about your girl struggling to walk and breath at the same time. 

Welp, time for me to hit the sack. You guys have a wonderful weekend!

Oh, made a 2.0 for the spring semester, from my grandfather's death, crazy work weeks and being out last month with bronchitis; I passed. Barely.



And....Star Trek came out today

mmmmmmmm Karl Urban MEOWWW...

Stole my heart in LOTR!

plenty of eye candy for mom and action for my son tomorrow morning. Just like Iron Man 3.. Robert Downey Jr.  is still handdddsssoooommmmmmeeeeee.....


Luv summer blockbuster movies...Bye!!! :)